September12014
This guy was courteous with his phone use but now I want to know his secrets! #speaksoftly #carryabigphone #probswasaboutme #space

This guy was courteous with his phone use but now I want to know his secrets! #speaksoftly #carryabigphone #probswasaboutme #space

August292014
I’d rather have the dollar #sadtip #gambling #celebritybartender #sheaskedifimMormon #space

I’d rather have the dollar #sadtip #gambling #celebritybartender #sheaskedifimMormon #space

August242014
Frop Frop & Fred Fred @pascalpp #space

Frop Frop & Fred Fred @pascalpp #space

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August232014
#Repost from @katiecompa with @repostapp

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Miss @sharonspell #creekawards

#Repost from @katiecompa with @repostapp —- Miss @sharonspell #creekawards

10PM
#Repost from @mways with @repostapp Totes babes

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Babes.

#Repost from @mways with @repostapp Totes babes —- Babes.

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August222014

On Grief, Progress & Kindness

“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle.” ― Plato

Three years ago today I boarded the M60 bus to LaGuardia Airport for the second time in a month. That day I happened to board the bus with a couple I know who’d recently gotten engaged. They were heading for him to meet her family for the first time. It was lovely to be near them, so giddy with love and snark, so nervous and hopeful. They were wonderful. 

They asked where I was heading and I simply said, “Home.” And I left it at that. It was true that I was heading “home,” but also true that I was heading there to watch my mother slip away in hospice. This was my second trip “home” in a month because three weeks before I’d made the same trip to watch my father slip away the same way. It felt right to omit these bits of information. They had no idea what I was dealing with, there was no way they’d be able to understand in that moment, and I didn’t want to them to understand. It was a comfort to see their joy, to know joy still existed in the world and would be available to me again in the future. My forlorn misery didn’t need to crash their happiness banquet. Spilling this sad would leave a mark.

Three years later, August is still a hard month with the sensory memories of loss. The angle of the sun and this season now remind me of sorrow, helplessness. I’ve cycled through the stages of grief, experienced the denial, bargaining, anger and depression. I have also experienced healing, and yes even joy, and walk better with my grief. The untrained eye can barely notice this limp. But when the conditions are right, the pain returns. And that’s ok. That’s acceptance. Kindness, forgiveness, acceptance are the connective tissue I choose to focus on in the low times. Kindness is my active choice.
August212014
I get older, they stay the same age #photos #TBT #vampires @withreservation #nothingbutanumber #space

I get older, they stay the same age #photos #TBT #vampires @withreservation #nothingbutanumber #space

August192014
Angelfire in the Geocities @toddmarciani

Angelfire in the Geocities @toddmarciani

August152014
Brace yourselves #winterinaugust #beastbuzz @ucbstyle #bracelettwins @hotchicksroom #icantwaittomeetkyle #space

Brace yourselves #winterinaugust #beastbuzz @ucbstyle #bracelettwins @hotchicksroom #icantwaittomeetkyle #space

August62014
#Repost from @joegarden with @repostapp At work, in bed—I guess any prepositional phrase will do now. Near water, after dinner, throughout history…
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Ran into @sharonspell at a video shoot. We celebrated the encounter with Chinese food and this obviously sarcastic fortune.

#Repost from @joegarden with @repostapp At work, in bed—I guess any prepositional phrase will do now. Near water, after dinner, throughout history… —- Ran into @sharonspell at a video shoot. We celebrated the encounter with Chinese food and this obviously sarcastic fortune.

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August42014
I love art!!! (at MoMA The Museum of Modern Art)

I love art!!! (at MoMA The Museum of Modern Art)

1PM
How am I supposed to know which pieces are good when they don’t post the prices? #space (at MoMA The Museum of Modern Art)

How am I supposed to know which pieces are good when they don’t post the prices? #space (at MoMA The Museum of Modern Art)

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August22014
Finally! A snack I don’t have to share! #iveturnedacorner #snacks #raisins #stealthhealth #space

Finally! A snack I don’t have to share! #iveturnedacorner #snacks #raisins #stealthhealth #space

July292014
No parking. Or leaning. #parking #leaning #no #Astoria #geriatricfication #brokenhipsters #space

No parking. Or leaning. #parking #leaning #no #Astoria #geriatricfication #brokenhipsters #space

12PM
Keep an ear to the ground for the train, Astoria! #corn #almostgotcreamed #gentrification #mta #space

Keep an ear to the ground for the train, Astoria! #corn #almostgotcreamed #gentrification #mta #space

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